It has been a white since my last rejection.

I didn’t get into the program, with 25 spots available and seemingly little interest in the program. I interviewed very poorly and said I was much to casual about it. They think I did really badly, I thought I had a pretty good shot, quite the difference in opinion. I don’t anticipate that I’ll get the other position I applied for. It baffles me though when people are doing better than me with far less ability to be flexible, I guess they at least know what to expect from them, I don’t make it clear. I think Des will find out soon how truly bad of interview I can do. Fuck the Category job that I declined to interview for is posted again, I might have had a real good shot at it, for fuck sakes. I am simply at a loss of words, I have shot myself in the foot much too often. I just feel like the biggest dipshit on the planet who can’t do anything right. I hate my awkwardness.

Kitty decided to rest on my neck, with his but on my ear.

Buickpimp Magazine is coming afterall

This Month features the first online mentions of Buick pimp magazine. We have worked very hard together to get to this point people. I would like to thank all those who have donated and helped me fund the money to get the domain, thank you. In all our fundraising efforts have earned a grand total of 0 Dollars and 0 Cents. I was able to get the domain thanks to a free domain name offer. So it will be coming, now I have to make some graphics. In preperation I have google seached for Buick pimps and Buickpimp and well there has not been a lot mention. I believe out there somewhere is a Park Avenue with rims and some other Buick. Well people this isn’t your grandpa’s Buick.

I have had two job interviews last week for the same job. I was called in for one on Thursday, they gave an example of a sample question over the phone, the questions they did give in it were not really similiar or close to it. I was told at the beginning of the interview if I did well they would be haing final interviews tomorrow, that I didn’t know about but they thought I was told. Luckily my morning was clear so I could do that easily. I think I did better with the questions asked Friday but, I forgot to ask one question that I though would have been very good to ask, oh well. At least on Friday I did not use the words “Bling bling” in an answer, sadly I did do that on the Thursday interview. I was talking with some of the other people who were interviewed with me after, it seems like my answers were better and more realistic, I talked about project managment and talking with employees and breaking down tasks, they were talking about having contigency plans a head of time which is OK except that you’d be spending more time making contingency plans than making decisions as crisis approaches, well it depends but for the situations they described in the question it wouldn’t be the easiest to make a plan of action before hand. I found out that the resumes I put in for other positions did not arrive to the people doing the hiring, HR tried to say they picked up their packages too early but I don’t know about that, now I have to get that worked out on Monday. These other positions pay better quickly while the one I interviewd for would pay me significantly less than what other people in that position would get paid.

Anyways so those interviews were at downtown Toronto, both days I took the GO train into town. I must say that the GO train is very quiet, especially compared to the regular VIA trains I have used. Milton Station is pretty empty before 7 in the morning. Thursday was the day with the snow and wind, it took about an hour to get there. Transport trucks were passing me in the fast lane since nobody wanted to use the slow lane. There was a car spun around in the middle lane, traffic was a bit slower in that area due to a lot more snow there and a transport truck and a neon bumped bumpers in the fast lane. Overall it wasn’t a horrible drive, mostly because I had time on my hands. I think the RBC building is sinking and has been for quite some time since the sidewalk suddenly heavily slopes downward towards the building on all sides of it. While downtown I saw a busstop with a billboard on it asking if you could afford to keep your husband. The other side of the bus stop had a small printed poster in very large and colourful letters announcing that some lawyer could get you divorced for 500 dollars or so. It made me giggle a little. I didn’t take a picture of it in fear of offending the homeless guy who lived in the bus stop.

On the second day I stopped at the Bay downtown since I was there and wow, I know people said it was big before, I just didn’t realize how big. They had an Olympic Suede Jacket for 395 dollars, it was marked down too, It may have been 449 before. I didn’t poke into their electronics section because I had just enough time to run to the bus station to catch the bus home to Katty. The ride was pretty OK especially since there are not that many stops to be made. I got to see some very lovely signs such as “We are # 1 in the #2 business”. Milton homes are rather scary looking they are all identical looking, even the ones that are not the same they are just obviously a derivative of the original house design, they all used the same bricks too. The only difference in the houses tended to be what colour the garage and window trims were painted. Even this was scary since one was olive green than another might be forest green. It looked like originally they were not going to use house numbers to distinguish the houses but rather have everyone remember what colour their trim was because they were all just slightly different looking.

We had lunch at the mall because we are lame like that, although first I stopped by Zehrs for sushi because I am super lame like that, than we had Manchu Wok. The chicken there is quite addictive although there chicken balls did not have that extra flavour that I prefer my balls to have. We went to Liquidation world since the Cambridge was supposedly has a better selection and my god they do, they even have a bookshelf sarcoffagus.

I had to depart later to Brantford where Kathy boarded the last train to Windsor.I miss Kathy. It will be a shorter week down there for her since she is coming back Thursday, I look forward to that.

Yesterday I dragged my nephew around to other liquidation and cheap stores in the area from Guelp to Kitchener to Cambridge, in all I got some recharable AAA batteries for less than 5 bucks and Atmosfear at Giant Tiger for 15 bucks, it did cost more for Christmas. After I got it I realized I liked the game Nightmare better, of course I was young and stupid when I first played it so it may have aged very badly, much like my writing. I sound like a 14 year old girls in the entries I posted at the beginnign of the entry.

Hopefully work times passes quickly this week. Oh well I have to go off soon and feed the frog.

I’m so tired, am I awake?

I have an interview downtown tomorrow, gosh darn it I am nervous. I dislike all my dress shirts so I am going in wearing Olympic clothing. My eyes want to sleep, my body does too. I applied to a couple more positions within the company, I hope to hear some good news on them. I stupidly bought a Cash for Life Lottery ticket on Saturday before my aircut and won 6 bucks. Today I cashed it in and got another ticket as well, I won 4 bucks. The cost of the ticket was 4 bucks. I cashed that in and got another ticket, I won 4 bucks. I cashed that in and I won $50,000. I scratched the top row, than the second row and I believe that 2 $50000 were showing and than I scratched the bottom row. I almost shit my pants. Than I noticed I miscounted and the first one I thoought said 50,000 actually said 25,000 so I did not win a thing.

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Anyways my arm feels weird. I carried out a slot machine from work for a friend and my arm feels like there is a phantom weight on it. You know how if you stand in a doorway and keep pressing up when you walk out your arms go up, same kind of feeling. I did get to realize that my arms have become very noodley, I use to carry around TVs all the time before, I am sure I’d struggle greatly if I tried.

Kitty like sleeping in my laptop case, he is such a sweet kitty. I didn’t get to see Kathy today, with all her class plus studying and such, I probably won’t get to see her tomorrow either since I should be preparing for an interview, well I guess I should be preparing today as well. It is for the management trainee program. I’ll see how it goes, It is downtown though so that will suck to get there.

So I think I mentioned that I got a project to do for someone who I will be having a different interview with. Someone else was asking about me and he seemed pretty uninterested about me and mmore so in someone else, I’m not sure if it is due to the lack of experience in his area since his people are n00bies or if he overheard me making fun of him. Well we will see. I also applied to some positions outside of the area.

I feel full still, the food I ate on the weekend is still filling my stomache, unless that is the gas from the beans I have been eating. I couldn’t get a good night sleep again yesterday, I tossed and tunred a few times. A couple of those times I think I squashed the cat. On the plus side he is using his litter box again. He is pretty suspicious of it since his litter was replaced with crystals, he smells everything before going. It was funny just watching him step into the box, He’d prod the crystals first and than attack it when he thought it moved or that something was living under it. He did that too with the regular litter when it got changed he would just start scratching away at it digging a hole.

Night Night Kitty Cat

Since I can’t find my fuck valentine’s day picture

Today is Hump Day, it is almost Hump Day

I am excited, things are looking up, I feel rejuvenated and excited.

I still haven’t got a haircut, it is hard to go out there and get it done. Than again the only time I got it done before was when there was a magicuts in a Zellers and I got a shitty haircut there. I did shave today though, I had the music loud and cranked and than my parents got home, they were not too happy.

I ended up not getting any olympic stuff, it is all the same stuff as before and I am in no dire need to get anything. I did unfortunately spend 15 bucks on food, sushi two whopper (whopper wednesday), and a Chocolate Cookie Dough Blizzard.

I am so stoned tired right now, gah. I am going to someone’s birthday party tomorrow, I haven’t met her yet, but she is going to be Kathy’s roomate as soon as the summer rolls around. I hope I don’t have to shake her hand. Oh well sleepy sleepy sleep.

Oh yeah kitty snuck out the door for a bit when my mom was airing out the kitchen the other day and stood at the edge of the snow covered patio. She called him in but he pretended he didn’t hear her but as soon as the he heard the door start to close he meowed and came in, although very slowly. He stepped slowly and carefully before taking each step. Each time he lifted his foot out of the snow he shook it before putting it back down. I love that cat. My mom was chasing him a round with an empty toilet paper roll earlier. I tossed it into the living room when I was taking my shower, when I was done and came out my mom just picked it up and was trying to put it on his tail. Kitty wasn’t very impressed with that so he jumped off the chair and started walking away, it fell off when he jumped. She than went to pick it up and chased him across the room as he started to walk fster and faster. She never did catch his tail as he ducked behind the sofa.

Goodnight all.

The Pole, The Man, The Wonder

I have made $5 in interest in January. I am such a financial genius. The sad part is that I have forgotten or at least it is in the deep cracks in my brains, that is to say my personal financial knowledge is. It is rather sad but I would be struglling a lot to figure out how to do my own taxes. I accidentlly brought some nudity to work but no one really noticed except the two people who were looking through my pictures at the time.

Speaking of pictures.

I eat too many delicious beans.

I am pretty tired today. I spent another wonderful weekend with my honey. Unfortunatley I can’t for the life of me find work around here. A position that I could do they wanted 3 years experience and it was a 6 month contract. I was looking through the job bank at Laurier, the only thing I could be qualified for is tree planter but I hate digging. I still need a haircut as well anyways.

I might get some more Olympic stuff to wear but I am not sure. Originally I wasn’t going to but than I found out for 2 weeks of the year I could wear it at work and that may sway me, also the extra 20% off but there isn’t anything there that exciting for me that I may want to get. Maybe a black version of the hoodie sweater that I already got, but I already have a lot of hoodies so it would be just another to go in the closet. I don’t really wear hockey jerseies a lot so my Buffalo one will be much more than enough. I guess I am OK and do not need to find a way to justify me purchasing more clothes.

My name is Dean and I am addicted to spending money on trinkets. That should be obvious, I have purchased so many small toys and stuffed animals, weird shells for my tank and laser lights for it. I had collected a bunch of Bionicles. I have a bunch of video games that although I play it is rarely, I just don’t feel like it, I guess with that I was hoping for more of an interactive experience with more people. Today I contemplated stopping by Zehrs to get some grocery store sushi, some for today and some for lunch tomorrow if I had to drop Chris off at home. His house is by the Zehrs which tends to carry more sushi. He drove his truck home so I didn’t have to, which was nice. I purchase things on impulse and I regret it pretty much right away (like when I got the learn french software) or later down the road. I still go to the malls every weekend or close to it. I am glad to say it is mostly for viewing purposes. I still have the urge. I really can’t say that I have beaten it since I still have high visa bills. I am slowly saving more, very slowly. I would like to have a higher paying job. It is really sad and I am embarrassed that after 4 years of university and having been out of it for 2 years that it took me so long to find a job and that the job I did find pays scarcily over 25000 and really only requires a high school diploma. I feel ashamed of myself every morning when I wake up at 6 to go and work for the next 8 hours under my potential. I am so much more, but I am not, so says my job. It is said that our jobs are a part of our identity. Usally when you just meet someone one of the first 5 questions will be What do you do, and from that the other person begins to form their own take on who you are. Meh, I wish I was Batman.

The other thing that bugs me is the act of shaking hands when meeting someone. I am not too sure why, I think it is because it seems so formal and rigid and I am not hip enough to liven it up. I guess just also making contact ith another person, especially someone I just met. I was just thinking of this because on Saturday Kathy ran into, (well chased more like it) Tudor and Laura. This would be the first time I met Laura in person, only saw he in a car before. She shook my hand. I wanted to hide behind Kathy. It just seems like such a normal thing a normal person would do. I am somewhat normal but I just got uncomfortable. Maybe it is my many years without human contact or lack of being around normal civil human beings. I don’t know. I always just liked waving my hand saying hi at a comfortable distance. It just seems to say Hi and keep me safe from the ass kicking I likely deserve.

I still suck at pool

It has been so long, I miss playing it, I had a free hour so it came out to 1.26. I don’;t miss paying for it, it got ‘spensive sometimes. Lazy rainy day. I got called by a headhunter, I think they tossed out my resume as soon as they got it since she sounded like she was in a hurry and would send a package immediately. I didn’t get anything so I guess I suck again. Which I agree with. I thought I had more stuff to write about but it is appearing that maybe I don not. Yesterday I slept in until noon today I slept in until 9.30. I guess I am no longer a night owl. Oh well now to do the depressing work of looking at my resume.

My fish are dying

There were a couple here and there, yesterday none. I come home today and I thought a plant was in the filter because it was very clogged. It was about 4 or 5 fishies. They all bit the bucket at one time, odd. I am worried about my pleco. He has been out more, even when the light is on. Not only that but he has been much more active moving around and sucking on the glass all over the tank and moving from spot to spot pretty quickly. His body doesn’t look quite right. The cat is really enjoying it. He continously jumps from the TV (that is next to the tank) to the top of the tank and back down trying to get at the fish. Sometimes he’ll stand up and look in (as best as he can). He is so fascinated by the tank, he spends so much time looking at it. Even sitting on a chair away from it he just turns his head to look at it. Yesterday it looked like he was going to try to sleep but instead he stuck his head out from the chair and looked behind the chair so he could look at the tank. He is very silly.

Well it looks like Zellers has been sold, or well at least a recomendation was made, unless someone tops the offer it might go to him. Strangely enough I got a letter in the mail from HBC saying I am no longer an employee of Zellers. I am a Bay employee now, at least according to my paycheque, the difference other than that is nothing.

I was thinking of signing up for a flickr account but for the cost of 2 years and a bit I could just buy another hard drive to back up my photos. I’m not sure if the power supply in my Acer could handle it but I guess I could always temporarily retire the 8 GB seagate in the other one, ole reliable. I need to figure out what I should do with RRSPs, I don’t have much and I think I may want to hold on to it in case my job isn’t around much longer. Scotiabank has the worst mutual funds, in 9 years I think I am almost at the amount I initially put into them.

Oh well I have some fish to net out of a filter.

oh yeah
http://heavenlyevil.com is up now.

My pee is going to explode.

My urethra can hold it all in because I am all man. I should have filled in my endorsement form by now but I still haven’t. I don’t know why but I always seem to sabotage my career the most. I can do so much more to help myself out but I just don’t feel like doing anything. When I’m at home I just feel like lying on the couch and waiting for the timme when I will get up to lie in bed. And repeat. The only time I really feel like doing something is when I’m at work not wanting to do my current job, but that usually passes in a bit.

I don’t get why people like participating in fashion n’ motion, it seems I dunno superficial I guess. Maybe just because of the massiveness of the project and they get to meet and get twirled around by a whole bunch of people.

I have had a bad eating weekend, pretty much all junk food, including a large thing of onion rings smushed into my poutine. At least I haven’t had an chips. The new vending machines at laurier are loud. Someone ordered chips from one, from the noise that came from the machine I thing it put a bunch of chips into a new bag and filled it with air and seaaled it or something. I couldn’t think of any other reason it sounded like a vaccum cleaner. I’m such a slug, I don’t feel like moving, not even for DDR, I don’t know why, I don’t know what will break me from this habit. Maybe it is the food but I doubt it, even with better food I still don’t move. Maybe it is because I don’t really move or walk anywhere anymore. I just sit at my desk all day, before at least if I did nothing I’d be standing in place, or at worse leaning on something in one spot. I don’t really feel like starting any sort of new projects or reading other than light reading or trying to learn anything or really follow through with anything. Maybe it is just the weather, maybe it is the toll from being oon the road so much, I should sleep more. I did last time and it was soooo good.

Oh Kathy can now be found at http://heavenlyevil.com

Oh yeah Kathy’s olympic hoodie seemed to have a bit of a stitch problem on her hoodie’s front pocket. At the top at the ends of where the pocket is they have both become undone up to the point of where the vertical stitching is. Oh well, I still have the receipt.

Oh well I am going to go watch Kathy play DDR and bounce around. Maybe she’ll wear the skirt I got for her.
– Tuxedo Mask out

I stepped in cold, wet dry food.

It was still moist! and it was dry food, the cat carried it all up the stairs in his stomache for me. A great way to wake up. Work feels so dead endish right now and why not it is for me but I have only myself to blame, I don’t open my resume much or at all.

I got Battlestar Galattica min series, a bit more than I expected but I had it covered with a gift card. Time seems to go by so quickly sometimes I wonder how much of it I have wasted, there is so much more I could be doing. At least it is January, time will feel slow for the next while at least. Some day I need to shrink my pics and put them online.